Treat Me Like a Red-Headed Stair-Step Cycle

I can sit here and tell you that I've had zero ill effects from the Clomid I've been taking, but I just yelled "You motherfucker!" at a video game just now.

...It was Katamari Damacy.

Really?

 Yeah, so I might have a touch of the Clo-zilla in me. Thankfully, I manage to keep it under wraps most of the time. I've just returned from a two day getaway in Amish country (it was WONDERFUL) so I'm feeling relaxed and full of carbohydrates made lovingly the old-fashioned way.

I had another ultrasound on Monday (CD 16) for those of you following my saga. I did Clomid (100 mg) on cycle days 5-9. I had my first follicle check on CD 12 with nothing over 10mm. Plenty of follicles, none measurable. I went back Monday only to find out that yet again, I had not responded at all. There was no development on the 15 or so follicles they'd found on each ovary. I was at a local market having lunch when I got the call from the RE's office about my uneventful ultrasound.

They said that they wanted to stimulate me more, and that they'd like it if I started Clomid (200 mg!) again that night, and then take it for 7 days instead of 5 (double wow). I was minutes away from going to a place where I would have no phone and no internet for 2-3 days, the fact that I received the call at that moment was serendipitous. They were able to phone the prescription in to a pharmacy that was on my way out of town.

Since this is my second round of Clomid in the same cycle, my RE refe

So here I am, day 3 of 7 days of mega-Clomid. Really, not much to report. In a stupid way, I wish I had some symptoms - some indication that SOMETHING was working. If a week of 200mg Clomid doesn't get me to have some good follicles, I don't know what will.

The Little Follie That Should

 

My first follicle check was this morning. I braved freezing temperatures on a bicycle and rode the mile to the clinic. There's a monitor on the wall, so I can see what they're doing and I notice that she measures a follicle on the left side. I asked her how big it was and she said 6 millimeters.

 

 

 

Say what, now? Only 6 millimeters? Come on girls, you can do better than that. None of the other follies were measurable. She marked the left as having 20 less than 10mm, and the right as having 15 less than 10mm. My lining was a 7.8 and she said that was on par with someone at cycle day 12, so that's good to know that the Clomid hasn't destroyed my lining. She told me the RE would get faxed copies of my ultrasound images and they'd call me in the afternoon.

 

 

When the nurse called this afternoon, she explained that I have "boatloads of follicles" but did not mention the 6mm follie. I have to go back Monday (CD16) for a repeat ultrasound. If I ovulate, I usually do it a little later in the game so for now, I'll keep using ovulation tests and hope for better results on Monday. I hope at least one of them grows.

 

I think they can.

I think they can.

I think they can.

I think they can.

 

 



IF Is A Headache. No, REALLY!

I'm (hopefully) at the end of Cycle 9, because I'm taking my last dose of Provera today. My hope is that I withdraw soon, and can complete any ultrasounds (and hopefully trigger!) by the end of the month, when we have a little vacation planned.

I am no stranger to Provera, but it's really kicking my ass this time. Headaches. Oh god, the headaches. I cannot recall feeling this tired or moody in a long time, none of which I could attribute to the Provera anyway. Last night, I fell asleep (while sitting up) doing a crossword with my husband - at 8:30. This morning I hit the snooze bar a total of four times, meaning that I slept about 40 minutes longer than I had intended to. I have zero energy. It doesn't matter if I have coffee or not, I'm just incredibly exhausted.

Since the first time I took a round of Provera during this "journey" of mine (I seriously hate calling it that) I've had a bit of a paranoia with it. I took an ovulation test out of boredom after taking the first Provera dose, and the test was positive. I called my OB who told me that I need to ignore it, not have sex and to just wait it out. Now I always have the thought of "What if?" when I take it. What if I just ovulated really late, fertilized an egg and am now getting rid of it with the Provera? I often ask myself, am I being impatient? I see people talking about going 70, 80 or even 100 days for a cycle - and here I am taking Provera at day 42 (doctor's orders, since we saw no response).

I'm actually taking a day off on Friday to sleep a bunch and have a leisurely day with no real obligations. I will most likely end up bored and lonely, but I need the quiet. Plus, I have an obscene amount of sick days.